Today my agency asked for the phone number and email of my manager that wrote me my reference. They wanted to make sure it was real and not altered. I gave it to them and asked them not to reveal it was for a job in Saudi.
After lunch time, my assistant manager came to me to tell me she received a phone call about the reference. We have a relationship where we can joke with each other so she said “boy, I could have screwed you and said ‘I never wrote such a reference!'”. Then she started to ask questions about the job I am seeking. I tried to change the subject and distract her with jokes. It worked for a few minutes but then the questions started again. I skipped around the truth and said it was a temporary job in a level 3 because I miss critical patients.
I did not mind her asking but I wish the unit’s biggest rumor creator was not in the room at that time. I am now envisioning what rumor Miss Gossip will start upon hearing I requested a reference for a new job. The night shift is about to have FOUR open positions while day shift currently will have three openings soon. I will give plenty of notice if I leave in January, but I do not want the staff knowing due to fears they will treat me harsher after they know. Maybe I am being paranoid. I am worried about the negative things they will say when they learn I am leaving. I hope they fill the positions before then.
I have no control over that comes out of the mouths of my coworkers, but I can control how I react. I must realize the only thing that will be hurt by her gossip is my ego. I need to practice meditation to help me cope with my stress.
“Slander cannot destroy an honest man; when the flood recedes the rock is there.”- Chinese proverb